About Me
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Beautiful Liars
My darlingest friend Sarah is kinda goin thru a real mess ... she's madly in love with this dude, and at first, he seemed like he was into her ... you know, the usual stuff men do when all relationships start ... he texted her all the time, e-mailed when he couldn't text, called her on time, and you know, pretty much made it very very clear that there is somethin goin on with them.
Now, see, as much as the myth of not knowin what women want is popular ... it's seriously a wrong myth. Women know EXACTLY what we want ... exactly. If we like you and if we want you, there is really no mistaking in that. It's obvious in the way we talk to you, the way we look at you, the way we worry about you and in the way we remember things about you, even things you have casually said 3 weeks ago. We tell you in plain and simple words that WE LIKE YOU ... either as a friend or as much, much more than that.
But with men! God forbid should they ever use simple English and tell us what's really goin on ... They'd rather come up with every single freakin excuse in the world they can possibly think of to NOT tell us what is really goin on with them ... Is that like some sort of weird unallowed action in the 'How To Be A Douche-Bag' rulebook? It must be, because all men seem to do that.
Now, back to Sarah ... so, after a really promising possible relationship potential, after all the right things were said, after the fairy tale ... guess what the dude does?! He dissappears! He goes from 10 text messages and 15 calls per day to ----- nuthin. Absolutely nuthin. Now, listen, doing that is ONLY allowed if you (the men) have somehow managed to get involved in the worst accident ever ... where you barely managed to escape death ... where your vehicle got burnt beyond recognition ... where your phone got smashed into pieces and so did the bones in your hands ... and that is the ONLY explainable and acceptable reason that allows you to escape from calling. Because no matter what else happens to you, no matter how bad it is, you still need to take 15 seconds out of it to send us a text (see how nice we are, we said a text ... so you dont even have to make the call) Its so simple, you know, if the girl matters to you, you will find a way to contact her. That's all there is to it.
Now my question is this : If you are not into us, why not just tell us that? Seriously, how hard is that? Do you have any idea how amazingly easy it would make things for everyone involved? All you gotta do is look at us and say these very easy words;
"Babe, it's just not working out for me".
How hard is that? Seriosuly, how hard? But noooooooo ..... those are the exact words we will never hear. If you guys would just try and make an attempt at telling us something along those lines, it would save us weeks and weeks of worrying, of analysing, of freakin out and of making things harder on you men ... seriously, guys, try it out one time and see how easy it really is.
So here's another thing that makes no sense to me. A guy meets a girl...he then starts calling her very often...textes her all the time...hangs out with her quite a bit... introduces her to his friends...makes short terms plans with her...makes suggestions that maybe both of them can 'make it work'...says he totally understands when she makes it CLEAR she doesn't wanna get hurt in this...tells her to go take her time and sort her mess out before both of them 'officially' go steady .... and THEN suddeny in a matter of a couple of weeks ... he changes his entire story to that along the lines of "I'm not sure ... I'm scared ... I need space to think ... I dunno how I feel now ..."
Seriously la ... how can you guys not know how you feel? It's either you like someone or you don't la ... so easy, aint' it? Here's a tip for all you men who dunno how you feel: If you are not sure, then it's already a NO from you. Realise that.
Because when you like someone, you sure as hell don't make them wait and wait and try and figure out whether or not you like them anymore ... if you really like a girl, then go make it CLEAR and do whatever it takes to make her yours la ...! If she's a special girl, or if she's one that you know you wanna keep ... then not making your move immediately is the stupidest thing you can do ... if she's really great, trust me, there are other men out there who will also realise that and are not gonna sit back and let her walk away. And these men are gonna deserve her.
And if you have seriously spent enough time with her to know that she's a nice and a great girl, but for some reason, there just isn't any spark on your part ... then the kindest thing you can do is go tell her that it's just not working out for you.
Don't tell her you wanna 'pause it' ...
Don't tell her you're 'freaked out' because whether you realise it or not, she is freaked out too ...
Don't tell her you need space to figure out how you feel because then she's probably gonna be waitin for an answer ... and it isn't fair to make her wait ... and chances are she liked you when she met you ... she liked you when she gave you her number ... she liked you when she hung out with you ... she liked you when you went away for work ... she liked you thru out the the whole 'Im not sure drama' ... and believe it or not, she STILL likes you despite it all. You moron.
Don't lie and make excuses about seeing how things are gonna go because ... come on, ... if you really think that ... then obviously you have already decided that things aren't gonna go anywhere. So go tell her.
So bottom line: If you're not into the girl, make it clear. Don't leave her guessing and don't leave her hanging. It isn't fair ... at all. We won't get mad at you for being honest ... because actually, you would be makin things SO much easier for us by being frank ... and we'd probably really respect you for that and not go around bitchin about you. The truth is ... we bitch only when you guys become beautiful liars. So see, women are really easy to understand.
If we like you, you'll know it.
If we want to try and work it out, you'll know it.
If we want to be with you, you'll know it.
And if we are not into you, you'll know that too.
So guys, don't make promises you can't keep. That's so yesterday ... if you kinda indicated at a promise, then keep it. If you can't keep the promise, come out and say it loud and clear. No need to make things any more complicated than they have to be.
It's either a 'yes' or a 'no' .... no 'maybes' in a relationship.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
A Few Of My Un-Favourite Things
Monday, October 11, 2010
The Mad One Hour Rush
Annoying classes that I have this time are twice a week! Thursday's ones are a killer...Imagine driving all the way to uni, in the horrible hot and humid weather, and trying soooo hard not to kill the drivers in front of you!!!
Why oh why are Malaysian drivers so stupid on the roads? Especially those who drive right smack in front of you, cooly doing 45 km/h, crusing down the road, while talking to some idiot next to them, or worse, on the phone (not hands-free, mind you!) and totally clueless to the demon growing within you!!
I had one of these idiotic-kopi o -clueless-road crawler today.. Imagine this, my work ended at 2 pm, and I had to be at my class by 3 pm...and this is KL we are talking about (where you need an hour just to get out of your housing area)...so I had to rush to my car after work, manouever thru the hormone-driven driving of 18 year olds at college, be patient through the traffic lights, endure the highly intelligent idea of road works at 1 pm on the busiest road in Setapak, try not to yell at the huge busses and taxis that decide to stop just when you are right behind them....and of coz, live thru the wonderful KL traffic....rush to my uni, find a parking, and dash in the heat to my class before my lecturer gets there. And this is done within an hour! Phew!
So there I was, rushing thru Jalan Bangsar, and just as I was about to congratulate myself of my excellent driving skills of having 10 mins to spare, there comes this alpha-idiot who thinks that driving in between the lanes would win him the freakin Nobel prize for intelligence! Now naturally, he falls in the supra-idiotic category for
In my dictionary, any colour other than red means go! Even if its amber. And if its green?
Duh-h! But this doink sees the green, sees other cars racing by, sees me thru his rearview mirror practically breathing down his back...and what does he do? He slows down! At a freakin green traffic light! God...you can imagine how much I would have loved to kick his ass!! I think my temper and blood pressure reached to boiling point in that very instance. Thus the headache.
Sighhhhh...I think I need to get myself a driver. I'm so close to losing my patience with these idiotic road crawlers. And its only been Week 1. By the time I get to Week 14, I'm pretty sure I'll give up my driving license and sell my car.
The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
Friday, September 18, 2009
Charlie Love
It had to be one of the worst and most painful moments of my life, watching my sweet boy take his last breath in my arms, and feeling helpless and powerless to do anything, other than to watch him go. The only thing that was worse than that was enduring the pain of digging his grave and then laying my baby in the cold earth, knowing its the last time I'd hold him so close.
Its been a week now. I wish it was months already. His memories seem to be in every part of the house. I see him on the dining table, my computer, my bed, the toilets, the couch. His bowl's still in the kitchen, all the packets of his cat food and cat biscuits in their containers. The pails in the bathroom are still filled with water, because he used to refuse to drink from his bowl, and only drank from the pails. I found his fur on my car-seats today.
One of the worst thing about death is probably the suddeness of the whole thing. The person goes away, but you're still left behind trying to get used to the whole thing. But its so weird because, you know they're gone, but at every point, you find yourself looking for them. And an instant later, the whole thing comes back to you. I do that the whole day. I wake up and think, 'Gotta feed Charlie', or I park outside my house and actually wait a heartbeat for Charlie to come greet me. Before I go to bed, I think 'Better bring him in'. Yesterday evening, I almost yelled his name coz it was time for his food. And then immediately, even before I finish the thought about feeding Charlie, I remember that he's dead. Those are some of the hardest moments of the day.
In times like this, when your beloved and treassured pet has died, and when you're in pain because you're missing him, one of the most cruelest and horrible thing another person can say to you would be, 'Oh, its just a cat.' Wow. My boy has become 'just a cat'. That's like telling someone not to cry over a lost pencil, or a cancelled TV show. 'Its just a pencil. No big deal, get a new one.' Charlie might be just another animal to you, but to me, he was much much more than that. He was my love.
If he were 'just a cat', would I be writing here about him? Would I be in so much pain after losing him? Would I hurt each time I looked at his grave? Charlie was never 'just a cat'. He was my joy. He made me laugh with his nonsense, like each time when he tried to chase after a bird, or when he stood staring at a fly for hours, hoping he'll catch it. Or when he'd try to get his huge fat tummy through the grill door and rattle the whole thing.
Charlie was my companion. He waited in my room every morning until I woke up and got dressed and then he'd come downstairs with me. He'd come running out to my car to greet me and to jump in each time I came home, and then lie on his back so that I could rub his tummy. He'd go look for me all over the house if I was gone for a few days. He'd climb into my bed every night, and sleep next to my pillow right until morning.
Charlie was my friend. He listened too all my rantings and ravings with sleepy eyes. He'd jump right on any test papers I was marking so that I could pet him. He's sit on my computer table each time I was using the PC. He'd sneakily try to cheat me into feeding him twice. He'd stand in front of the fridge as soon as anyone opened it and try to run off with the packet of ikan bilis. He'd try to grab chicken or fish from my plate when I wasn't looking. He'd poke his head through every plastic bag that contained something new that was bought, just in case there was something in there for him. He's cover his eyes with his paws if I drew the curtains every morning and let the sunlight in while he was still asleep.
Charlie was my annoyance. He'd find a way to sit in my laps just as I'd be getting all comfy with a good book so that I could pay more attention to him instead. He'd bite my hand, feet, leg, shoulder if I didn't give him his food on time. He's try to jump on my threadmill each time I worked out on it. He'd get all his paws wet each time I washed and cleaned the porch by walking through the water and into the house. He'd yell and cry and create a ruckus each time I gave him a bath, and then sulk for a couple of hours after that. He'd make me worry sick about him if he wasn't home on time. He'd make me interfere in all his fights with the neighbouring cats and then carry him back home. He'd make me wake up in the middle of the night to open the door to let him out if he really had to 'go'.
Charlie was my saviour. He helped me get over Shindu's death, he kept me company while Ash was gone, he meowed gently in the night whenever I woke up because of nightmares, he sat with me quietly whenever I got sad, he waited outside the bathroom while I was inside. And he just brought so much of love to the house each time he walked in. He brought a smile on my face each time I saw him.
I brought Charlie home from SPCA because I wanted a chance to love him. He was a rescued cat. That means he was rescued from an abusive environment. I wanted to show him how special he was and how much I needed him. His sad sad eyes stole my heart, and I have loved him so very very much ever since the day I first saw him and took him home. The amazing thing with animals is that you realise they don't need you, but that you need them so much more. They love you unconditionally. They're God's only creations that can love unconditionally. People have too much evil in them and are too selfish to ever manage to do that.
I want Charlie back. I don't care if he's in a better place now, I just want him here. I don't care if God thinks he needs Charlie more, I just want him back.
So you see, my beautiful and precious boy, my darling Charlie, my little bundle of happiness , he was so much much more than 'just a cat'. He was everything to me. If you can't sympatise with me, then don't insult my precious boy by reducing him to nothing. He was never nothing. He was everything. And he means more to me than any of you do.
And death is death. No law says than a human's death is a greater loss than an animal's. Its probably the other way around. Its the love you felt for the one who had died that matters. The pain and agony is there because you loved them, and now they're gone. That's how it is when a person dies, and its the exact same pain, same agony and same grief when your beloved cat dies.
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond that glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight,
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I did not die.
Rest In Peace, Charlie Love.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
My Top 5 Sob Stories
But a couple of days ago, I was flipping through Astro and realised that a lot of the shows are beyond crap! Something called Blade Trinity..Lake Placid 3,4,5..The Revenge of some creepy deformed alien-cum-Frankenstein thingy... It was so bad that I wondered if paying 80 bucks monthly to Astro is worth watching a blond Wesley Snipes??
And then I started thinking about all the movies that made me cry (Yes, I'm weird). I cry really easily when I'm watching movies, even if the scene like something totally ordinary...Dunno why, but its so annoying. Most of the time I just don't watch these depressing kindda shows...like The Colour Purple? Never ever gonna be seeing that, like NEVER! Seriously, a bunch of slaves in poverty, trying to win freedom or whatever it is they were doing and to have top it off with OPRAH without make up? Horror!
But here are some movie that just made me sob and cry and shows that I'll probably never wanna watch again.
5) Armagaddon
Yes, we've established the fact that I'm weird, so you can imagine why I found this movie just a sob-a-minute. Seriously, it had all the crying elements... you have the hard working dad who raises his kid all alone, then dad is afraid to let her go and live her life, dad has issues with AJ, and finally dad gives his own life so that AJ can live! My God, by the end I was worse than a baby! Especially that little speech he gives to Gracie about not being able to keep his promise....totally heart wrenching.
4) Meet Joe Black
I LOVE this movie. Just love it! But again, I cry non-stop from beginning to end. There are like a thousand ultra-depressing moments in this one...like when Death realises he has to go without Susan and he's saying bye...and when Bill has the last dance with Susan...and the last and final moment Death and Bill walk away... how horrbly depressing! The only thing that makes the crying worth is Brad Pitt and his totally cute love affair with peanut butter!
3) Titanic
If you don't cry in this movie, you are so not a human! Seriously, how can you not cry???
'You jump, I jump'?? And dear dear Jack slowly slipping into the horrid dark and cold sea, leaving Rose all alone to go on without him, promising that she'll never give up?? Sighhhh....
And if all that don't make you cry, the freakin' song will so do it. I was so sure that Jack'll make it and that he won't be dead, or like he'll walk up to her right at the end where she's saved. But Noooo...the directors just had to make it all the more depressing! Freaks.
2) In Pursuit of Happyness
If there's an award for most tears shed in a movie, this has to be it. Oh my god! I have never seen the movie from beginning to end, I totally refuse to. I think I'll need to go into therapy if I do that. Watching 5 mins of bits and pieces here and there were enough to make me go through an entire tissue box! Wasn't it just completely heart breaking? And the worst thing is, its a freakin' true story! If you need a super crying episode, you know what to watch.
1) Passion of the Christ.
Too painful for words. It rips your soul in half.
Well those are the top movies that totally clears my sinuses :P And as much as I love good shows, I think real life is bad enough without adding onto the depression by watching movies like this. I mean, if you can gawk and drool over Edward Cullen, or salivate with Jack Sparrow or jump into action with Autobots, why why why why whyyyyy would you wanna go into a theatre and sob your heart out??? Something's so wrong with movie makers and movie goers.
Luckyly there are people like me around : )
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Songs or Rhyming Syllables?
I couldnt believe the stupidity of most songs being played! At first I thought whoever did the selection of that day must be suffering from some massive constipation or something, so I swtiched stations a couple of times..but God! It was like all the stations decided to play totally crappy songs... or maybe thats just what songs have become. CRAPPY!
The lyrics are lousy, the melody is monotonous, the background is totally predictable, and after a few songs, they all start to sound alike!
- I Kissed A Girl (Kate Perry) - Sighhh... This has to be the worse song of the entire year. 'I kissed a girl and I liked it'? How much more gross can it get? Why would you even wanna do that, let alone sing about it! I'm guessing a lot of guys out there would be rating this as one of their favourites, and naturally this goes to show the low thinking capacity of the male brain : ) Once upon a time ago, The Beatles' 'I Wanna Hold Your Hand' used to get parents all upset and angry.... wonder what they have to say now?
- Bed (J. Holiday) - This one's just waaayyy to creepy. 'I wanna put you to bed'??? That's freakin sick! Trust them singers to take something memorable out of your childhood and turn it into something completely nauseous! I doubt I can NOT think of this song the next time I hear a parent say they're putting their kids to bed... Yes, it is a sick song. Please get rid of it!
- Addicted (Saving Abel) - Whoever the people in charge on censoring songs are, I think they need to pay a lil more attention to some songs at times! I mean, so its ok to ban yoga coz some people understand the meaning of Om, but a song like this gets free airway coz obviously nobody understands the lyrics!
- In The Ayer (Flo Rida) - There is nothing more frustrating than trying to figure out what the heck is he saying?? 'In the anger'? 'In the hanger'? 'In the ayer'??? What on earth is an 'ayer'?? He sounds like Bart Simpson in a helium balloon! No doubt the tune is very catchy and addictive, but God, the song is so lame!
- What You Got (Colby Odonis) - 'Always talkin' bout what you got, Girl you know that you need to stop'... Huh?? Songs like these makes me wonder how hard could it be to become a songwriter?? Just rhyme the last syllables and Woopee, we got ourselves a song! What is she talking about that she's got? And if she's got whatever it is, why should she stop? And stop what?? Why so complicating la?!
Its so frustrating that these are the songs that are making it to the Top 3, Top 10, Top 40, Top Whatever... And some people actually take the time and effort to vote for them! Wow.. Something must be so wrong with their taste in music.
Where are the good songs of Maroon 5, or Nickelback, or even Beyonce? Songs that have lyrics which tells a story, and melody and rhythm that stays with you. The ones on the radio are not songs, they're just noise... with rhyming syllables. See even I could write one:
Oooooo, oooooo
I love you, you,
Boy, its true, true
I'm not blue, blue...
See thats my chorus now. All I need is to add one stanza before that about how lonely/sad/pathetic I was before I met you, then another one about how you brought sun and flowers and LOVE into my life... then sing chorus like 20 times.... and sing one more stanza about being together forever/nuthin gonna tear us apart... Sing chorus another 1o times.
Oh and of course, do a music video with as little clothes as possible, and I have already won myself a music Award!